My winter and spring consisted of: feeling unmotivated, not exercising, getting sick at least three times between November 2016 and now (some related to CIRS, but more on that later), and eating horribly, but with sporadic attempts to set myself right. I would get on a good path, but then feel deflated and unmotivated. Some of this may be due to feeling depressed. I have been taking supplements to help this, but the whole exercise piece was missing. So I stumbled along, knew I was gaining weight, knew I wasn't feeling well even when I wasn't officially sick. And let's just say that my approach to sugar, ice cream, and candy bars is (and hopefully - was), like that of an addict.
I finally had the courage to step on the scale - shocking. I know my clothes weren't fitting well, but, you know, tomorrow. I had been thinking of booking some sessions with a personal trainer months ago, but wanted to wait until after Portland. Then I got super sick, and did nothing. But eat.
Recently, I watched some YouTube videos on fitness and lifestyle. I became motivated to try once again to get a handle on this. In a stroke of luck, I received a free trainer session from the health club since it is my birthday month. I signed up, was able to choose my trainer online (which was hard, but thankfully I picked one I match well with), and set up the first session.
The first session was mostly evaluation of my strength, flexibility, diet, etc. Then she had me stand on this diagnostic fitness tool called "In Body":
The In Body told us my weight, which I already knew was up there, my total body fat percentage, my muscle mass, and some other stuff that I wasn't really tuned into (too focused on the first three). In a nutshell, my fat percentage is too high, and my muscle mass is too low. It was a lot worse than I thought it would be. We talked about diet and sugar, and a lot of other stuff. Ultimately in the end I signed up for a series of sessions.
I have been exercising every day, even if it is just a walk throughout the neighborhood. I figured out a .75 mile distance and do that when I don't go to the health club. And I have stopped treats for now, with the exception of a little bit of nice, dark chocolate (Wei of Chocolate Dark Creamy, sweetened with coconut blossom sugar), and I had a little bit of Tyler's chocolate cake the other night at a restaurant. I also had ordered some prepped meals from Meez Meals (Mise en Place). That helped so much with cooking - most of the prep is all done. I also saw a product on YouTube to add to my smoothies in the morning that seems to help with the cravings. I am going to go through the fridge, freezer, and pantry over the next few days, and get all set up to promote proper diet.
So I think I am on the right track. My trainer worked me very hard today, but I felt great afterwards. And it is easier to feel positive when one is doing positive things!